29 July 2009

I know this isn't about Berlin

But this still makes me Happy.

Happy like biking to Charlottenberg in the morning, which is like attending a daily critical Mass. Like Erfrischungs Stübchen, this german candy that I had as a kid and thought had disappeared from the face of the earth and then found in a Spätverkauf completely by accident. Like speaking germlish extraordinarily well. Like an Obscene selection of Michael Sowa postcards. Like saying mundane things to strangers in a foreign language. Like visiting friends of 15 years ago who now live in Oman and Dresden and Paris and What Are the Chances we would all see each other again. Like some strange resurrection of my relationship to drawing, due to something in the air (?). Like cobblestones. Like well-designed pencil sharpeners, that I get Far Too Excited about. Like East German scooters. Like a five-day sprint to Milan (because it's an hour away) to wander through a graveyard with a life-long Friend. Like Italian Gelato. Like hand-made pasta. Like....Like....THIS.
HAPPY LIKE THIS.

Let's face it; this is a weird thing to have done. My purpose is maybe somewhat ambiguous, and I'm trying very hard not to think that it is a fleeing from pre-June existence. But I would so much rather be in some debt over this than matching dishware or carpets. MUCH RATHER. I wandered around yesterday just thinking Yes, YES, YES. THIS is how one should live. These are the leaps one should take. Perhaps not everyone. But Sweet Christ, this is My Life. GLEEE!

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